Today was freaky. But this weekend was freaky. E.C. and I went to Westbury mall to shop and just to hang out. We just walked around the mall, shop and ate.
Shopping is a release for me. I'm such a girl. It was so much fun and E.C. and I talked about normal stuff. We didn't talk our feelings or the family.
When we ate, E.C. sat across from me. I looked into his beautiful blue eyes and smiled. If he wasn't me brother, he would be the perfect boyfriend for me. He's beautiful with a beautiful soul. My heart raced and I laughed when I am around him. I would love to get married to him, only him. His oiled black hair, long eye lashes, pump lips and can talk about everything, just like a girl. He's and will always be my best friend.
But, something happen. CRAZY.
E.C. had to go to the bathroom. So what right, he came back with a number.
Found out, while we were walking through the mall, a guy was checking out. A guy. When E.C. was in the bathroom, the guy thought E.C. and I were dating, but E.C told him, we're just brother and sister; twins.
E.C. told me, he was tall, slender, brown eyes and went to our school, but was on the geek squad.
I have his number, but have not called him.
In school, I wanted E.C. to bring him to me, but he wants me to call him. I may do it tomorrow. I'm so scared. OMG.
What am I going to do? What am I going to say? I don't know. I never spoke to a guy, who wasn't a family member.
I wish E.C. would just point him out to me and I can see him. Because I don't even know what he looks like. But, I don't know, if I'm pretty enough.
Maybe I look like a monster is his eyes. I don't know. I wish he could just walk up to me in school and say, "Hi. My name is Greg." Because that's his name.
Oh God. What should I say? I want to yell,but it will be so silly to do so.
I wish, I had more self-esteem in myself and my abilities. I don't have anything to offer and then again, I never talk to him and don't even know what he's like.
I have to call him, but I wish my stupid bro could just help me out, for once. UGH!!!!!!!!!!
Almost Saturday
It will be almost Saturday morning. E.C. and I are close again, but Simon Peter doesn't like it. I don't care. He's an ass. I know you should never talk or write about an advisor like that but I don't care. He thinks E.C. and I will have sex; which is SICK. I love my brother, but not like that. SICK.
Simon Peter wants us the read bible daily, but why? I don't believe God loves my family. God can give a damn about us.
If you read the bible, Galvin is a demon and my great grand father. He made us, so we come from demon kind, so why would God in heaven want to love us. So, I don't understand why my family have to go to church and read bible.
I would like to know what my purpose is with this life I have. I don't know if I could get sick with a disease, grow old or die. I know, I need to stop bitching.
Uncle Apollo, he's a friend of the family and a vampire. Uncle Merlin and Uncle Apollo knew each other for a long time, probably hundreds of years. Uncle Merlin just told me, Uncle Apollo is a vampire; which is cool because you know what vampires are all about. They drink blood, never grow old, they pale as death and terrible teeth. Everyone knows about vampires and even were wolves, but I never seen one (were wolf). I don't even think were wolves exists.
I'm just don't know what to do? My emotions are bubbling inside of me and I wish I knew what I'm suppose to do.
I knew I was different from other children, I knew my family were different. It funny, the only people who understand you is your family, but you still feel all alone. Like trap in a cage without knowing when I can get out and see the world as it is. You know. I'm hurting so much, but I have to be strong.
I look at my mom and she never ever show any emotions. She's never happy, sad, angry or hurt. She's just made out of stone without a heart. She's more like a warden then a mom. The night when Uncle Merlin was going to tell us the story, was FIRST TIME, my mom shown any emotion.
How am I suppose to be leader in my family when I can't lead myself? Should I ask Satan for help? Or Jehovah for help? I don't even know who I should pray for?
I feel like I'm drowning in a sea of doubt, lies, drama, insecurity and sadness. What I am going to do?
I feel something is going to happen. I talked about with E.C. He feels it too. But, I need to be concern with my school work. It has been slipping. I hate that. I always need to be perfect.
K is becoming popular. She sees her disease as a gift to make her popular in school.
I need to stop calling what I have is a disease. I'm just trying to fit something into my life, that's not normal. Normal people can't move in a split second, make their eyes hollow as a dead tree rotting inside, move in angel time or normal time, have a burn mark so people will know you family tree, move scars and moles around my body, and become a monster.
Simon Peter wants us the read bible daily, but why? I don't believe God loves my family. God can give a damn about us.
If you read the bible, Galvin is a demon and my great grand father. He made us, so we come from demon kind, so why would God in heaven want to love us. So, I don't understand why my family have to go to church and read bible.
I would like to know what my purpose is with this life I have. I don't know if I could get sick with a disease, grow old or die. I know, I need to stop bitching.
Uncle Apollo, he's a friend of the family and a vampire. Uncle Merlin and Uncle Apollo knew each other for a long time, probably hundreds of years. Uncle Merlin just told me, Uncle Apollo is a vampire; which is cool because you know what vampires are all about. They drink blood, never grow old, they pale as death and terrible teeth. Everyone knows about vampires and even were wolves, but I never seen one (were wolf). I don't even think were wolves exists.
I'm just don't know what to do? My emotions are bubbling inside of me and I wish I knew what I'm suppose to do.
I knew I was different from other children, I knew my family were different. It funny, the only people who understand you is your family, but you still feel all alone. Like trap in a cage without knowing when I can get out and see the world as it is. You know. I'm hurting so much, but I have to be strong.
I look at my mom and she never ever show any emotions. She's never happy, sad, angry or hurt. She's just made out of stone without a heart. She's more like a warden then a mom. The night when Uncle Merlin was going to tell us the story, was FIRST TIME, my mom shown any emotion.
How am I suppose to be leader in my family when I can't lead myself? Should I ask Satan for help? Or Jehovah for help? I don't even know who I should pray for?
I feel like I'm drowning in a sea of doubt, lies, drama, insecurity and sadness. What I am going to do?
I feel something is going to happen. I talked about with E.C. He feels it too. But, I need to be concern with my school work. It has been slipping. I hate that. I always need to be perfect.
K is becoming popular. She sees her disease as a gift to make her popular in school.
I need to stop calling what I have is a disease. I'm just trying to fit something into my life, that's not normal. Normal people can't move in a split second, make their eyes hollow as a dead tree rotting inside, move in angel time or normal time, have a burn mark so people will know you family tree, move scars and moles around my body, and become a monster.
Family Tree
Last night, before my visit from Great Grand Father, I was wondering how my mom got my father to become Shadow Creature. Strange, but how do you even ask someone to become a monster. How does someone become a monster?
Aunt Megan was at my house talking to my mom. I believe, my mom was piss at her,but she doen't like her anyway. So what? What is, M? They were talking about him and how he'll be judge? WTF?
Yeah, M is a mess and so dark, but he's my cousin. Like, hello. My mom was talking about him as if he was an outsider, but that's how he acts. So what?
I hate these secrets.
Last night, Galivn, visited me. It's so strange. I was at my desk in my bedroom, with the door open. Just doing homework.
In a split second, the door slammed shut as if a storm was in my hallway. It made me jump out of my chair. Crazy.
I ran to the door, but it seemed it was nailed shut. I looked around my room and heard a voice. It was Galvin, I knew it.
I can't say what he told me.
Am I child of God? Does God loves me, even though I come from unnatural means?
Am I judging my family?
Aunt Megan was at my house talking to my mom. I believe, my mom was piss at her,but she doen't like her anyway. So what? What is, M? They were talking about him and how he'll be judge? WTF?
Yeah, M is a mess and so dark, but he's my cousin. Like, hello. My mom was talking about him as if he was an outsider, but that's how he acts. So what?
I hate these secrets.
Last night, Galivn, visited me. It's so strange. I was at my desk in my bedroom, with the door open. Just doing homework.
In a split second, the door slammed shut as if a storm was in my hallway. It made me jump out of my chair. Crazy.
I ran to the door, but it seemed it was nailed shut. I looked around my room and heard a voice. It was Galvin, I knew it.
I can't say what he told me.
Am I child of God? Does God loves me, even though I come from unnatural means?
Am I judging my family?
WHAT?
I came home early from school, 2day. Get this, my Aunt Megan is here. I couldn't believe it bcause my mom can't stand Aunt Megan. Aunt Megan is married to my Uncle Merlin. After Uncle Merlin told us the history of our race, Aunt Megan told me, she met Susan B. Anthony; who she called Susie.
I heard talking in the closed door library. My mom sounded piss. Got 2 go.
write later
I heard talking in the closed door library. My mom sounded piss. Got 2 go.
write later
Do I die?
I just woke up and wondered, Do I die? My grandmother is at lest 400 hundreds old. Uncle Clive told me, he stop counting his age after 100. So how old am I? Can my family die? How can we die?
What is going to happen to me?
What is going to happen to me?
Darkness
Fire and her family left this morning. All I feel is darkness. My heart is black and my blood turned dry. There's no life in me, no more.
I'm drifting life today without a care. I have a disease and I can't get cured. I'm tinted and I can't get pure. Who am I? What is my purpose in life? I thought I knew. Which God do I pray too? I do have a clue.
Today in school, K didn't want to talk and C was sick. E.C. wanted to be near me, but he was afraid our grandfather disease will hunt him.
Why can't life be the same before the story Uncle Merlin told us? I'm so lost as if I living in a deep pit of darkness and I'm searching for the light.
There is something wrong with M. I know it. But, can't talk about that now.
I'm confused. Last night, I saw creatures in my room. They were looking over me and if I was a precious jewel. They were strange looking, some were tall, some were short and some were eyes.
They were examining me and when I looked at them, I couldn't breathe. I wanted to pray and yell for God, but my voice was delete from my soul.
Are these demons from hell? What do they want to say to me? I'm a product of a demon? I don't know. I wish I knew.
I have so many questions and little answers. Since, I know the true natural of me and my family, what is next.
Why do I have to judge? And why do I feel my twin brother and I will betrayed? I wish I knew
I'm drifting life today without a care. I have a disease and I can't get cured. I'm tinted and I can't get pure. Who am I? What is my purpose in life? I thought I knew. Which God do I pray too? I do have a clue.
Today in school, K didn't want to talk and C was sick. E.C. wanted to be near me, but he was afraid our grandfather disease will hunt him.
Why can't life be the same before the story Uncle Merlin told us? I'm so lost as if I living in a deep pit of darkness and I'm searching for the light.
There is something wrong with M. I know it. But, can't talk about that now.
I'm confused. Last night, I saw creatures in my room. They were looking over me and if I was a precious jewel. They were strange looking, some were tall, some were short and some were eyes.
They were examining me and when I looked at them, I couldn't breathe. I wanted to pray and yell for God, but my voice was delete from my soul.
Are these demons from hell? What do they want to say to me? I'm a product of a demon? I don't know. I wish I knew.
I have so many questions and little answers. Since, I know the true natural of me and my family, what is next.
Why do I have to judge? And why do I feel my twin brother and I will betrayed? I wish I knew
Getting Late
I have school tomorrow, but I have to write this.
I couldn't go to church today, even though, it's in my own house. I feel sick. How can I go to church when my family is the seed of Galvin, an angel from heaven who became a demon, is my grandfather. He made us to be monsters.
I found out about the family and my family dates back to the Pilgrims arriving to America; which was my grandfather and grandmother.
My grandfather name is Eric, who is in a frozen state is a basement somewhere because he raped my mother, who gave birth to Simon Peter. My grandmother's name is Olyvia and did know she is at lest 4oo years old, but looks like a 50 year old.
When my grandmother was a teenage in Boston, Mass, she hated church. Her parents made her go to church every Sunday and she read the bible everyday. She had brothers and sisters, and they lived in a two bedroom house is woods.
One day, my grandmother went to church one Sunday and Eric (my grandfather) was preaching. She feel in love with him, just with one look. My grandmother and grandfather started courting as they call it, but in the year 2009, they were dating. But, something happen that had to deal with Galvin.
My grandparents got married and moved to what is now called Garden City, New York. My mother and her brothers and sister was born. Aunt Rebecca was a runaway slave from the south. My grandfather found her in the woods.
Aunt Rebecca was the family nanny, until my grandfather had sex with her. She found out that she was pregnant and moved out west. Spirit is the product of Aunt Rebecca and my grandfather.
My grandfather raped my mother and had to be in a frozen state. Simon Peter was born and because he was born by a crime, he became a priest or spiritual guide in the family.
This is the organization of my family:
My mom == The Leader of the family, Management and the Judge.
Uncle Merlin == The history guy and the keeper of the past, the present and future
Aunt Elisabeth == Business and Money
Uncle Bryan == Science and medical
Uncle Clive == Arts, Sports, Writing and Entertainment
Simon Peter, Mark, Luke, Matthew, John and James are the spiritual guides who helps with each family.
Aunt Rebecca == spies for the family
When my mom, aunts and uncles got married, they had to change their mates into Shadow Creatures.
Now, things make sense and why were they we are.
My love raw human flesh, human blood and we change into a hideous monster with a burn mark.
My mom's burn mark is a pair of scales.
Uncle Merlin's burn mark is a open book.
Uncle Bryan's burn mark is a medical sign.
Aunt Elisabeth's burn mark is a pentical.
Uncle Clive's burn mark is Arts.
Aunt Rebecca's burn mark is Water.
Simon Peter's burn mark is an Angel.
Yes, Galvin was there in a nice press suit with color on his face. He took one of the servants bodies that we didn't eat. He explain himself and why he made us. He wanted to prove to God that he, Galvin can create like God himself.
He was married to a human and had a half human son named Hosan. God flooded the earth and his son died with all the half human giant people on the earth. He was sad and walked the earth for years and years. He found my grandfather and bite him. My grandfather and grandmother had the taste for human flesh and blood.
That's some of the history of my family. Strange. But, this is the strange thing. My brother and I are responsible for the family. We will have the power to order spies, make decisions for the family, judge family members and manage the family by their gifts and powers. We were told by Uncle Merlin, we will have make a important and sad decision in the family, but he doesn't know anything else.
K and C are second in command. God, I hate this.
Uncle Merlin said something else. Fire and I will hate each other to point we would want each other to die. I can't believe that. We are best friends.
At the end, Spirit cause drama about how the family hates her and how Galvin is the only dad she knows. She also told my mom, who is her half sister and Simon Peter to get there head out of their asses. She left.
I went to my room, alone. Thought about the story Uncle gave and it made sense. We are monsters. I though about vampires and werewolfs the monsters I hated. My family were just like them. I stared at myself in the mirror and saw a monster with a sad face.
How can I survive this? I am sad and scared like a little child capture in a lie and heartache. My family is not normal and our religion is something.
I love the church and I love God, but who is my God? Who do I pray too? Who do a worship? I don't know what to do. I need faith. I know it. Maybe God will give me the answer. I hope so.
I am so scared and I don't know what to do. I am freak. How can I be normal like everyone else.
I couldn't go to church today, even though, it's in my own house. I feel sick. How can I go to church when my family is the seed of Galvin, an angel from heaven who became a demon, is my grandfather. He made us to be monsters.
I found out about the family and my family dates back to the Pilgrims arriving to America; which was my grandfather and grandmother.
My grandfather name is Eric, who is in a frozen state is a basement somewhere because he raped my mother, who gave birth to Simon Peter. My grandmother's name is Olyvia and did know she is at lest 4oo years old, but looks like a 50 year old.
When my grandmother was a teenage in Boston, Mass, she hated church. Her parents made her go to church every Sunday and she read the bible everyday. She had brothers and sisters, and they lived in a two bedroom house is woods.
One day, my grandmother went to church one Sunday and Eric (my grandfather) was preaching. She feel in love with him, just with one look. My grandmother and grandfather started courting as they call it, but in the year 2009, they were dating. But, something happen that had to deal with Galvin.
My grandparents got married and moved to what is now called Garden City, New York. My mother and her brothers and sister was born. Aunt Rebecca was a runaway slave from the south. My grandfather found her in the woods.
Aunt Rebecca was the family nanny, until my grandfather had sex with her. She found out that she was pregnant and moved out west. Spirit is the product of Aunt Rebecca and my grandfather.
My grandfather raped my mother and had to be in a frozen state. Simon Peter was born and because he was born by a crime, he became a priest or spiritual guide in the family.
This is the organization of my family:
My mom == The Leader of the family, Management and the Judge.
Uncle Merlin == The history guy and the keeper of the past, the present and future
Aunt Elisabeth == Business and Money
Uncle Bryan == Science and medical
Uncle Clive == Arts, Sports, Writing and Entertainment
Simon Peter, Mark, Luke, Matthew, John and James are the spiritual guides who helps with each family.
Aunt Rebecca == spies for the family
When my mom, aunts and uncles got married, they had to change their mates into Shadow Creatures.
Now, things make sense and why were they we are.
My love raw human flesh, human blood and we change into a hideous monster with a burn mark.
My mom's burn mark is a pair of scales.
Uncle Merlin's burn mark is a open book.
Uncle Bryan's burn mark is a medical sign.
Aunt Elisabeth's burn mark is a pentical.
Uncle Clive's burn mark is Arts.
Aunt Rebecca's burn mark is Water.
Simon Peter's burn mark is an Angel.
Yes, Galvin was there in a nice press suit with color on his face. He took one of the servants bodies that we didn't eat. He explain himself and why he made us. He wanted to prove to God that he, Galvin can create like God himself.
He was married to a human and had a half human son named Hosan. God flooded the earth and his son died with all the half human giant people on the earth. He was sad and walked the earth for years and years. He found my grandfather and bite him. My grandfather and grandmother had the taste for human flesh and blood.
That's some of the history of my family. Strange. But, this is the strange thing. My brother and I are responsible for the family. We will have the power to order spies, make decisions for the family, judge family members and manage the family by their gifts and powers. We were told by Uncle Merlin, we will have make a important and sad decision in the family, but he doesn't know anything else.
K and C are second in command. God, I hate this.
Uncle Merlin said something else. Fire and I will hate each other to point we would want each other to die. I can't believe that. We are best friends.
At the end, Spirit cause drama about how the family hates her and how Galvin is the only dad she knows. She also told my mom, who is her half sister and Simon Peter to get there head out of their asses. She left.
I went to my room, alone. Thought about the story Uncle gave and it made sense. We are monsters. I though about vampires and werewolfs the monsters I hated. My family were just like them. I stared at myself in the mirror and saw a monster with a sad face.
How can I survive this? I am sad and scared like a little child capture in a lie and heartache. My family is not normal and our religion is something.
I love the church and I love God, but who is my God? Who do I pray too? Who do a worship? I don't know what to do. I need faith. I know it. Maybe God will give me the answer. I hope so.
I am so scared and I don't know what to do. I am freak. How can I be normal like everyone else.
OMG
The party was great, but there is a but.
All my cousins were there. It was great. Fire ran to my room when she arrived. She looked hot. Fire is a Navajo Indian and she looks like it too. She's so beautiful. She has the long black hair, the Indian features, thin and has fire in her almond shape eyes.
She was wearing a black dress to show off her shape and she looked great. She had on the necklace my grandmother gave her. The necklace was made with white gold and had a pendant which slide on. The pendant matched our eye color. Her pendant was black, while my was green.
Fire looked and acted as if she was the most popular girl in school. She had it all and more, plus she can change shape. She could be also anything, like her older sister Spirit.
I hugged her because for a long time because I have not seen her in years or talked to her. For so reason, my mom didn't want me to talk to her. Found out from M, my mom and her mom hated each other.
But, there was question about Aunt Rebecca, she's black. Now, mom's brothers and sisters are:
Uncle Merlin, Aunt Elisabeth, Uncle Bryan and Uncle Clive. Aunt Rebecca is not a sister of my mom, so I don't know how, Fire and I are cousins. But, later in the night, I found out.
As I was getting ready, Fire talked about the trouble Spirit got into with the tribal leaders and what is going on in Arizona. I miss Arizona. When I was younger, I would fly out there and have fun. I would go to the Navajo pow-wow and eat fry bread. It was great. Plus, it was cool having Spirit, Fire, Wind, Earth and their father changing into animals and furniture. Before tonight, I wish I knew who to change.
After I got ready, Fire hugged me. She was hot as if she was the sun. I looked at her, she was nervous. I was nervous too. I did know what to make of the party. All my family was there, but it was for a reason.
My walked downstairs with Fire holding my hand, I gave her cool thoughts so she would not become the literal sun or hot as hell.
C and K were there with Hollywood parents. Uncle Clive was talking about the Scientology church helped him to kill his fear about turning old and made him became a better actor. Uncle Clive is also searching for religion, next it will be Jehovah's Witness.
My mom and Uncle Clive is always close. Since my mom is the oldest, she had to take care for all her brothers and sister, but Uncle Clive gave my mom the most trouble. When he was young, he was always entertaining the family with his plays and dancing.
One day, mom told me that he was tv for the family and told me she remembers when the tv was invented. I was shocked because my mom doesn't look old.
Uncle Clive ran away from home. He would do acts on the stage, before the film was invented. Again Uncle Clive doesn't look old.
Trinity, Tranter and Elisa was there looking bored and texting on their phones. They are Aunt Elisabeth kids. I can't stand them. They would sell their first born for money and a higher status in life. They live on the upper west in the city, far away from me. They are family member, who you can't trust with a pencil.
Brand, Boyce and Blossom was there. Boyce and Blossom was still doing their homework at the party. They are a family of nerds. Uncle Bryan and Aunt Blythe are professors at Colombia, in the City. Uncle Bryan invented fake human flesh and human blood, so my family could eat properly. I know that sounds disgusting. Aunt Blythe teach some type of science.
When I was young, human flesh was special meal in our house. It wasn't a big deal, like eating chicken. But, when I got older, I found that I was human, the thought of eating other humans made me sick, but I'm not human. I'm a monster, who craves the taste of a person's flesh anytime I get. Mom and dad would bring a dead person into the house and cook them like another meal. The blood was like wine to us and flesh was divine. I just had some today. We had the servants my mom hired on the menu.
M was there with his sisters and brothers. Uncle Merlin love history and M's brothers and sisters know the past, the present and the future. They are like fortune tellers, except for M. He's a good spy, so he knows everything, but not like his brothers and sisters. M is the old man out.
All the advisers were there keeping watch like a hawk. Simon Peter, Mark, Luke, Matthew, John and James. Luke is the new person in the group. Simon Peter helps my family. Mark helps out Uncle Merlin's family. Luke replaced Paul and helps out with Aunt Elisabeth's family. Matthew helps out Uncle Bryan's family. John, who looks like a personal assistant then an advisor, he helps out with Uncle Clive's family. James helps out with Aunt Rebecca's family.
After dinner is when all the sickness came. My brother was there talking with C. We didn't want to talk to each other because we didn't want Simon Peter to yell at us again, specially in front of our family.
He's my best friend and I could talk to him. Now, I know why.
I will write about this later, but thing is, how can I look at my mother the same way again. She taught me to be moral and spiritual, but now I see that is all lies. I hate her, but still understand her. I wish, she could have told me and E.C. about this herself. And Simon Peter lost all of his control over us. E.C. yelled at him for the first time and he felt good.
Found out Simon Peter is my older brother and he is the product of my mom and her father. WTF? This make me so sick, but tonight was the night most my questions were answered.
Is Fire is my cousin and how?
Why am I feeling sick?
My Aunt Rebecca's family can change shape?
The true age of my mom?
And why my family are monsters?
But, I have something; which the normal people don't have. My grandfather is God himself.
All my cousins were there. It was great. Fire ran to my room when she arrived. She looked hot. Fire is a Navajo Indian and she looks like it too. She's so beautiful. She has the long black hair, the Indian features, thin and has fire in her almond shape eyes.
She was wearing a black dress to show off her shape and she looked great. She had on the necklace my grandmother gave her. The necklace was made with white gold and had a pendant which slide on. The pendant matched our eye color. Her pendant was black, while my was green.
Fire looked and acted as if she was the most popular girl in school. She had it all and more, plus she can change shape. She could be also anything, like her older sister Spirit.
I hugged her because for a long time because I have not seen her in years or talked to her. For so reason, my mom didn't want me to talk to her. Found out from M, my mom and her mom hated each other.
But, there was question about Aunt Rebecca, she's black. Now, mom's brothers and sisters are:
Uncle Merlin, Aunt Elisabeth, Uncle Bryan and Uncle Clive. Aunt Rebecca is not a sister of my mom, so I don't know how, Fire and I are cousins. But, later in the night, I found out.
As I was getting ready, Fire talked about the trouble Spirit got into with the tribal leaders and what is going on in Arizona. I miss Arizona. When I was younger, I would fly out there and have fun. I would go to the Navajo pow-wow and eat fry bread. It was great. Plus, it was cool having Spirit, Fire, Wind, Earth and their father changing into animals and furniture. Before tonight, I wish I knew who to change.
After I got ready, Fire hugged me. She was hot as if she was the sun. I looked at her, she was nervous. I was nervous too. I did know what to make of the party. All my family was there, but it was for a reason.
My walked downstairs with Fire holding my hand, I gave her cool thoughts so she would not become the literal sun or hot as hell.
C and K were there with Hollywood parents. Uncle Clive was talking about the Scientology church helped him to kill his fear about turning old and made him became a better actor. Uncle Clive is also searching for religion, next it will be Jehovah's Witness.
My mom and Uncle Clive is always close. Since my mom is the oldest, she had to take care for all her brothers and sister, but Uncle Clive gave my mom the most trouble. When he was young, he was always entertaining the family with his plays and dancing.
One day, mom told me that he was tv for the family and told me she remembers when the tv was invented. I was shocked because my mom doesn't look old.
Uncle Clive ran away from home. He would do acts on the stage, before the film was invented. Again Uncle Clive doesn't look old.
Trinity, Tranter and Elisa was there looking bored and texting on their phones. They are Aunt Elisabeth kids. I can't stand them. They would sell their first born for money and a higher status in life. They live on the upper west in the city, far away from me. They are family member, who you can't trust with a pencil.
Brand, Boyce and Blossom was there. Boyce and Blossom was still doing their homework at the party. They are a family of nerds. Uncle Bryan and Aunt Blythe are professors at Colombia, in the City. Uncle Bryan invented fake human flesh and human blood, so my family could eat properly. I know that sounds disgusting. Aunt Blythe teach some type of science.
When I was young, human flesh was special meal in our house. It wasn't a big deal, like eating chicken. But, when I got older, I found that I was human, the thought of eating other humans made me sick, but I'm not human. I'm a monster, who craves the taste of a person's flesh anytime I get. Mom and dad would bring a dead person into the house and cook them like another meal. The blood was like wine to us and flesh was divine. I just had some today. We had the servants my mom hired on the menu.
M was there with his sisters and brothers. Uncle Merlin love history and M's brothers and sisters know the past, the present and the future. They are like fortune tellers, except for M. He's a good spy, so he knows everything, but not like his brothers and sisters. M is the old man out.
All the advisers were there keeping watch like a hawk. Simon Peter, Mark, Luke, Matthew, John and James. Luke is the new person in the group. Simon Peter helps my family. Mark helps out Uncle Merlin's family. Luke replaced Paul and helps out with Aunt Elisabeth's family. Matthew helps out Uncle Bryan's family. John, who looks like a personal assistant then an advisor, he helps out with Uncle Clive's family. James helps out with Aunt Rebecca's family.
After dinner is when all the sickness came. My brother was there talking with C. We didn't want to talk to each other because we didn't want Simon Peter to yell at us again, specially in front of our family.
He's my best friend and I could talk to him. Now, I know why.
I will write about this later, but thing is, how can I look at my mother the same way again. She taught me to be moral and spiritual, but now I see that is all lies. I hate her, but still understand her. I wish, she could have told me and E.C. about this herself. And Simon Peter lost all of his control over us. E.C. yelled at him for the first time and he felt good.
Found out Simon Peter is my older brother and he is the product of my mom and her father. WTF? This make me so sick, but tonight was the night most my questions were answered.
Is Fire is my cousin and how?
Why am I feeling sick?
My Aunt Rebecca's family can change shape?
The true age of my mom?
And why my family are monsters?
But, I have something; which the normal people don't have. My grandfather is God himself.
SICK
This morning, I was sick. The consist vomiting made my throat sore. El, my little sister heard me and came to my aid.
I love her. At times, she is so sweet, but at other times, she's a pain.
As my head was in the toilet, El held my long black hair back. She was so concern.
After the vomiting, I looked into the mirror and my green eyes were hollow as if death was inside of me.
Now, I know, today will be a special day.
This afternoon, my mom asked me not to judge her. WTF?
Where is E.C.? I need him.
I love her. At times, she is so sweet, but at other times, she's a pain.
As my head was in the toilet, El held my long black hair back. She was so concern.
After the vomiting, I looked into the mirror and my green eyes were hollow as if death was inside of me.
Now, I know, today will be a special day.
This afternoon, my mom asked me not to judge her. WTF?
Where is E.C.? I need him.
My consins
Today was still weird. It felt like, I ate some bad meat and I can't vomit. I drifted from class to class today. I didn't feel like myself. E.C. felt insane. For the first time, we didn't feel like the same person. Last night, after I wrote my first blog post, I carefully walked into my brother's room. He was talking in his sleep saying, "Judge, Judge, Judge". I didn't know why?
What was he dreaming about?
Ok, school was weird. K ran up to me in the hallway and started to talk a mile a minute. She did talk about Fire, Wind, Earth and Spirit flying into New York; which was cool. I knew that. But, I did know Uncle Merlin was going tell us a story; which is a BIG thing.
When Uncle Merlin tells us a story, it means he's going to tell us more history about the family. The more I see people who are not part of my family act, I can see my family is not normal. That's the true.
My mother calls us Shadow Creatures; which make sense. When my monster comes out, I can stick on a wall like a shadow. Serious! The first time this happen, I was freakin out. My family can do the same thing.
It's crazy, but I have dealt with it. M was in school. K saw him and try to speak him, but he yelled at us and gave us the finger again. I don't know why he is so nasty. He was never like this before. M looks dead and can fully change like us. He has pale death skin, pale blue eyes and jet black hair. He looks like the walking dead and get weirder each year.
School today, I don't remember it. I don't even remember how I got home. E.C. went to C's house. I wish, he was home with me. I needed someone to talk too, specially after what I hear.
This is what happen. I came home in a daze as if I was on a drug with no feeling or emotions. Ok. I walked to the door and open the front door, so what. Who cares.
I live in a large Old English type house. To me, it's normal, but to Fire, my house is a mansion. The living room, kitchen and dining rooms look like it should be in a London museum.
Anyway, I walked up the stairs and heard Simon Peter yelling at a woman. I couldn't believe it. Simon Peter with a woman. I walked near his room to try to listen, but I was planning to use a trick I have been trying perfecting , called reading minds. I can do it. So, I walked to the door and in a split second, the door swung open and Simon Peter was a giant. He stared at me and at that point, I wanted to die. I was shaking in my pants, but soon I have to laugh.
I snow white tiger with blue eyes and soft fur walked out of Simon Peter small closet type room, where is has his own bed, library, refrigerator, bathroom and pray room.
The tiger walked out and smiled. It looked like a girl tiger but I was not sure. She looked at me and laughed a little. She looked back at Simon Peter and stared into his eyes to the point he felt embarrass.
With his big tall self, "YOU ARE SIN", he said and slammed the door shut. The tiger was acting like a well-behave house cat. I pet her soft wonderful white and she stop moving. She looked at me with sad eyes and said, "Honey, don't worry. He's an idiot and afraid to face his own demons, like the rest of this God damn family."
I looked at her and smiled. "Spirit", I yelled and she jumped on me.
The white tiger turned into a beautiful tan freckled young woman with long beautiful silky long red hair. Spirit hugged me and I felt alive. She looked like a super model filled with drama. Spirit and drama went hand in hand. She caused it and brought it, but she was my hero. I loved her. She is never afraid to speak her mind. One thing is, I don't know how old she is. One day, Fire told me, she remembered when the car was invented, but she looks like she's 30.
Anyway, she's Fire's older sister.
"Where's your mom?" Spirit asked.
"I don't know," I told her.
"Ok. Well, Fire and the rest of the clan will be here soon. Ok, " Spirit said.
She talked to the top of the stairs and looked back at me and said, "We're all sinful here. We're the devil spawn and remember that. This is not your fault. Remember, OUR GOD loves us, even though it doesn't seem right. Peace."
Spirit walked down the stairs as if she was royalty.
I don't know what she meant. My family loves God and serve him faithfully, but we don't go to church outside our house. We have a church room; which we go into every Sunday morning. Uncle Clive and Aunt Nevaeh with K and C, joins us. We read the bible and confess our sins. But, there is one thing; which is strange, only Fire's family can change into things, animals and be invisible. I wish, I could do that.
Anyway, Fire is in town. I spoke to her. She's feels sick and excited at the same time like me. All my family will be under the same roof and the party will be crazy. I saw some of the servants, they do look delicious to eat. My mouth water when I see them. The food is going to be good.
If Spirit is going to be there, the fireworks are going to fly. OMG.
Know what, this blog is fun.
What was he dreaming about?
Ok, school was weird. K ran up to me in the hallway and started to talk a mile a minute. She did talk about Fire, Wind, Earth and Spirit flying into New York; which was cool. I knew that. But, I did know Uncle Merlin was going tell us a story; which is a BIG thing.
When Uncle Merlin tells us a story, it means he's going to tell us more history about the family. The more I see people who are not part of my family act, I can see my family is not normal. That's the true.
My mother calls us Shadow Creatures; which make sense. When my monster comes out, I can stick on a wall like a shadow. Serious! The first time this happen, I was freakin out. My family can do the same thing.
It's crazy, but I have dealt with it. M was in school. K saw him and try to speak him, but he yelled at us and gave us the finger again. I don't know why he is so nasty. He was never like this before. M looks dead and can fully change like us. He has pale death skin, pale blue eyes and jet black hair. He looks like the walking dead and get weirder each year.
School today, I don't remember it. I don't even remember how I got home. E.C. went to C's house. I wish, he was home with me. I needed someone to talk too, specially after what I hear.
This is what happen. I came home in a daze as if I was on a drug with no feeling or emotions. Ok. I walked to the door and open the front door, so what. Who cares.
I live in a large Old English type house. To me, it's normal, but to Fire, my house is a mansion. The living room, kitchen and dining rooms look like it should be in a London museum.
Anyway, I walked up the stairs and heard Simon Peter yelling at a woman. I couldn't believe it. Simon Peter with a woman. I walked near his room to try to listen, but I was planning to use a trick I have been trying perfecting , called reading minds. I can do it. So, I walked to the door and in a split second, the door swung open and Simon Peter was a giant. He stared at me and at that point, I wanted to die. I was shaking in my pants, but soon I have to laugh.
I snow white tiger with blue eyes and soft fur walked out of Simon Peter small closet type room, where is has his own bed, library, refrigerator, bathroom and pray room.
The tiger walked out and smiled. It looked like a girl tiger but I was not sure. She looked at me and laughed a little. She looked back at Simon Peter and stared into his eyes to the point he felt embarrass.
With his big tall self, "YOU ARE SIN", he said and slammed the door shut. The tiger was acting like a well-behave house cat. I pet her soft wonderful white and she stop moving. She looked at me with sad eyes and said, "Honey, don't worry. He's an idiot and afraid to face his own demons, like the rest of this God damn family."
I looked at her and smiled. "Spirit", I yelled and she jumped on me.
The white tiger turned into a beautiful tan freckled young woman with long beautiful silky long red hair. Spirit hugged me and I felt alive. She looked like a super model filled with drama. Spirit and drama went hand in hand. She caused it and brought it, but she was my hero. I loved her. She is never afraid to speak her mind. One thing is, I don't know how old she is. One day, Fire told me, she remembered when the car was invented, but she looks like she's 30.
Anyway, she's Fire's older sister.
"Where's your mom?" Spirit asked.
"I don't know," I told her.
"Ok. Well, Fire and the rest of the clan will be here soon. Ok, " Spirit said.
She talked to the top of the stairs and looked back at me and said, "We're all sinful here. We're the devil spawn and remember that. This is not your fault. Remember, OUR GOD loves us, even though it doesn't seem right. Peace."
Spirit walked down the stairs as if she was royalty.
I don't know what she meant. My family loves God and serve him faithfully, but we don't go to church outside our house. We have a church room; which we go into every Sunday morning. Uncle Clive and Aunt Nevaeh with K and C, joins us. We read the bible and confess our sins. But, there is one thing; which is strange, only Fire's family can change into things, animals and be invisible. I wish, I could do that.
Anyway, Fire is in town. I spoke to her. She's feels sick and excited at the same time like me. All my family will be under the same roof and the party will be crazy. I saw some of the servants, they do look delicious to eat. My mouth water when I see them. The food is going to be good.
If Spirit is going to be there, the fireworks are going to fly. OMG.
Know what, this blog is fun.
Today, Oh Today -- Why me?
My name is E. I'm a crazy teenager with a crazy family. I'm going through some stuff, so my cousin name Fire told me to create a blog. So here I am.
I live in Garden City, New York. If you don't know where Garden City is, it's on Long Island. It's seems my mom and dad have been living there for years. Which is a problem and that's why I'm worried. My stomach is in knots and I want to scream my head off, but I need to say calm. I wish, I can just speak my mind, but I can't because it would not be proper. What the hell, is being proper all about.
I hate the secrets of my family.
As I said, I go to a private school in Garden City with my twin brother, who I love an adore. I also go to school with my two crazy and strange cousins. They are twins two. The boy named C, act like a poor ass white rap without a clue and his sister named Kris is on speed 24/7.
They think they are so special because their mother is a film director and their father is a movie star. So what?
But, their is a problem. My parents don't age. My aunts and uncles don't age. NO ONE AGE.
But, I will talk about that later.
But, this morning, I was in the shower and my brother named E.C walked into the bathroom to pee, so what? My brother and I are like the same person. If I could, I would married him but we are brother and sister. We know that. But, this morning Simon Peter was freakin piss.
Simon Peter is like our guardian or advisor. He makes sure that we are ok, read the bible, pray to God and watch us. He's really creepy. He's tall and slim and wear black clothes all the time. He's so white, that if he was not walking I would think he was dead. But, I love his blue eyes. So crystal blue, it's like a crystal blue diamond. I never see him with a girl and he is always alone.
Ok, he freaked out when E.C was in the bathroom with me. He screamed and yelled. He became a giant and the gates of hell was upon us. We didn't know what to do. E.C. left as fast as he could and I stop taking my shower. My nakedness was still covered and I was shaking.
"YOU ARE SINNING AGAINST GOD. YOU ARE SINNERS. NEVER SHALL YOU DO THIS AGAIN," Simon Peter said and left.
I didn't know what to do. I don't remember anything else; all I know I was at school.
For the first time, my brother and I didn't speak in school. The truth is, I didn't want to speak to anyone.
C did bother me in school as usually. He's so cute, but he's an idiot. He has blonde hair, blue eyes and creamy tan skin. He looks like his super star father, but without the talent. But, I know he's going through his stuff too.
But, I had to show him my true self in a janitor closet. As, I said, I'm not normal. My nails grow long, thick and sharp like a monster. My skin turns to death. My teeth are a jagger and sharp like broken knives. My eyes become hollow without life and my burn mark travels to my cheek.
C pissed in his pants and he can do the same as well, just like the rest of my family.
My questions are: Why are we like this? What's my history? I saw my other cousin named M in the hallway, today. He knows everything. But, gave me the finger and walked away and I don't know why.
What's the hell is going on? I wish I knew. I better go.
My cousin Fire and her family will be coming to town next week for a family function. Talk later.
I live in Garden City, New York. If you don't know where Garden City is, it's on Long Island. It's seems my mom and dad have been living there for years. Which is a problem and that's why I'm worried. My stomach is in knots and I want to scream my head off, but I need to say calm. I wish, I can just speak my mind, but I can't because it would not be proper. What the hell, is being proper all about.
I hate the secrets of my family.
As I said, I go to a private school in Garden City with my twin brother, who I love an adore. I also go to school with my two crazy and strange cousins. They are twins two. The boy named C, act like a poor ass white rap without a clue and his sister named Kris is on speed 24/7.
They think they are so special because their mother is a film director and their father is a movie star. So what?
But, their is a problem. My parents don't age. My aunts and uncles don't age. NO ONE AGE.
But, I will talk about that later.
But, this morning, I was in the shower and my brother named E.C walked into the bathroom to pee, so what? My brother and I are like the same person. If I could, I would married him but we are brother and sister. We know that. But, this morning Simon Peter was freakin piss.
Simon Peter is like our guardian or advisor. He makes sure that we are ok, read the bible, pray to God and watch us. He's really creepy. He's tall and slim and wear black clothes all the time. He's so white, that if he was not walking I would think he was dead. But, I love his blue eyes. So crystal blue, it's like a crystal blue diamond. I never see him with a girl and he is always alone.
Ok, he freaked out when E.C was in the bathroom with me. He screamed and yelled. He became a giant and the gates of hell was upon us. We didn't know what to do. E.C. left as fast as he could and I stop taking my shower. My nakedness was still covered and I was shaking.
"YOU ARE SINNING AGAINST GOD. YOU ARE SINNERS. NEVER SHALL YOU DO THIS AGAIN," Simon Peter said and left.
I didn't know what to do. I don't remember anything else; all I know I was at school.
For the first time, my brother and I didn't speak in school. The truth is, I didn't want to speak to anyone.
C did bother me in school as usually. He's so cute, but he's an idiot. He has blonde hair, blue eyes and creamy tan skin. He looks like his super star father, but without the talent. But, I know he's going through his stuff too.
But, I had to show him my true self in a janitor closet. As, I said, I'm not normal. My nails grow long, thick and sharp like a monster. My skin turns to death. My teeth are a jagger and sharp like broken knives. My eyes become hollow without life and my burn mark travels to my cheek.
C pissed in his pants and he can do the same as well, just like the rest of my family.
My questions are: Why are we like this? What's my history? I saw my other cousin named M in the hallway, today. He knows everything. But, gave me the finger and walked away and I don't know why.
What's the hell is going on? I wish I knew. I better go.
My cousin Fire and her family will be coming to town next week for a family function. Talk later.
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